One Month to Go

My last day of work is in exactly one month.

WHAT?! How did this happen?? I am sincerely just so baffled by how quickly my year here is passing. Last night, my community met with one of our Support People to briefly discuss the year. I am still so overwhelmed with conflicting emotions. I am so excited to leave, but I’m so sad to be leaving. I can’t wait to get back to California, but I am dreading saying goodbye to New York. My job, my friends, the city life…everything is going to become a memory, and I just don’t feel ready to let it all go yet.

It’s scary to be filled with so many questions. Am I ready to leave this amazing city? I had always dreamed of moving to New York. Now, that dream is over. Am I ready to start grad school? A Masters and Education Specialist degree in Educational Psychology? Am I right for that role? Will I be successful? Will it bring me happiness?

I can still remember when I first knew I wanted to do JVC. I remember when I first looked up my agency’s website and fell in love with it. In exactly one month, I’ll be ending my last day of work at this amazing place. The families, the friendships…I knew this day would come, but I didn't know it would come so quickly, and I didn't expect to feel so many feelings. I know the transition will be rough, but I’m hoping that jumping straight into grad school will help things? Or maybe it will only put off the culture shock haha. 

I guess only time will tell how this will all play out. I still have so much on my mind like packing, moving, finding a place to live, starting school, making new friends, finding a job, figuring out loans...it's just so so much for my poor brain. I'm trying to keep cool and not let it become inundating, so, let's just hope I don't burst anytime soon. 

Here's to a new month--my last one in New York. I only have eleven free nights this month, as of right now. And with Dis-Orientation (our cleverly named end-of-the-year retreat) and a trip to Peru coming up, I only actually have thirteen days of work left. Here we go!...